Thursday, 12 January 2012

About time I updated - seriously. Lots of things have happened - too many really to list here - Amanda is now driving and on her Green P's, she has also finished her schooling and waiting to see where her future lies - WA Police is her goal but she can't "go there" till she turns 18 in May.

David has had one job and now another, closer to home - he comes home each day looking like he has rolled in charcoal (not far from the truth either) but seems to like it. Nicky and Callum - still at school and me, I am going back to school. University to be precise. I am just waiting for the official letter to arrive next week - I have been informally offered a position on the course by the course Director (Dec 13th). So I start a 4 year journey to become an Art Teacher (secondary focus but at the end I will be able to do primary and secondary school). Bach. of Ed (Visual Arts) is the official title at Edith Cowan, Mt Lawley.

I stressed for weeks before the interview - I was worried I didn't have enough or appropriate art work to show - she didn't even look at a quarter of the stuff I took with me before saying I had a place (dependant on paperwork being up to scratch), no worries there as I aced my STAT test - didn't think I did but that is worry for you! Talking of art, the image is of Blodwedd (pronounced Blod-weth) she was the second dragon that I made (have made 3 now and have a red one for me) this one is now living in Devon, UK. The first one (green) is in Pembrokeshire, UK. She is a shoulder Dragon - for obvious reasons. I also have a Dragon Tattoo now, designed by Jackie Morris I am very thankful for her friendship and her generosity in doing some designs especially for me. I need to get a better picture of that before I post - all the ones I have are from when it was freshly done, it has mellowed now and looks stunning, it makes me joyful each time I catch it out the corner of my eye.

Have been moving on with my life, friendships etc too, finding who fits with my life and who doesn't - it has been sad making the move away but some have naturally drifted off. I haven't felt as sad about it as I thought I would. I also found that I have probably been used more than friended by some. I release their friendship with love and move on. Last year was one of transition and transmutation, I have read some books that have affected me deeply on a spiritual level. On the spiritual theme I have grown so much in the last 12 months I can hardly recognise my own thoughts at times - I understand things on a much deeper level now, cause and effect and the harm that can be done on an energetic level by thoughts and words. I have also found some wonderful people out there in the WWW who I really connect with. I have also connected on a deeper level with someone I have known for years but was never really that friendly with her - I am glad she is in my life now (she knows who she is). My connection to spirit is also stronger, and my intuitive abilities has soared, this is good progress.

On a side note - make sure you let those who you love know it - it can be weird letting others know that you do appreciate their friendship and love them for it but it brings such joy to just put that out into the universe - what you give you will get back in abundance. It is all about energy and vibration, you need to be it to receive it.

OK that is it for now - not sure when I will be back, I have lots and lots of stuff to share.

Friday, 22 October 2010

The most amazing weekend of my life so far

I am not a church person and never have been but was brought up going to church and Sunday School, Youth Group and Brownies/Guides all connected to the Church of Scotland. I have always had a spiritual side but mainstream religion has never sat well with me - I don't have a belief in God in that form and never have, I have questioned this since I was about 12 years old from memory - it may have been earlier but this is when I became aware of the need to seek out a better answer for me. I am quite well informed now on different religions (none of which ever appealed). We all have different "Gods" but in the end it is the same collective spirit - we just call it by different names.

Spiritual mediumship has interested me from those early days, I believed totally in the endurance of spirit and that they come to us and look after us in love. Since my fathers passing almost 20 years ago there have been certain things that happen round me. The smell of tobacco, the water "bubbler" suddenly releasing massive amounts of air into the water bottle making a huge noise (at the same time every day even when it hasn't been used for ages) communication with them has always seemed to be a bit of a one way street where I will have a chat either out loud or internally. This past weekend all this changed for me. I have been learning to stretch my mind to touch the untouchable. I have a long long way to go but this is a post of the here and now so this is simply what happened and how I feel.

On a Friday in May I dropped the kids off at school and had to pop back home to pick up my bags. This was a residential weekend (though as it is in town some also just come as day students - I think they missed some of the more interesting aspects of this course). The course is held at the a very spiritual place (a surprising place for this kind of thing) and it is a beautiful place to be, the building is old but where we were it probably dates from the 1970's. We were given a key to our cell and shown where to go - I took my bags, pillow etc up to my room which was furnished with a single bed (all bedding supplied) a sink, a flip out table, chair and some shelves and a hanging rack for clothes. Shared toilets and showers. We met up in the Lounge and went through to the chapel for meditaion. It was lovely it felt right. After we went to the room for our first excercises/intro. Christine Morgan is an amazing Spiritual Medium very much the traditional medium - nothing new age there. I had seen her once before when she performed a Spirit Naming Ceremony for some babies in the church. She talked a bit about her philosophy and what we should expect from th weekend. The energy in the room was pretty electic. There was a couple of us newbies but I was the only one from the Sanctuary/Intuitive. I was picked to go up front and sit for everyone to "tap" into my auric field and have impressions of me...little snippets of my life/feelings etc read by everyone in the room (thankfully I know most of the girls there but if I didn't by the end of the weekend we all knew each other pretty well)

So I was sitting up front just feeling really uncomfortablely scrutinised and Christine went round the group - one by one I was getting spot on hits with what was being said - even the new girls were pretty right - you can often read a person intuitively by using psychic energies (everyone can do this on a certain level and it is referred to as intuition) or spiritual content and it is hard at times to work out what is or what isn't. So then they had to push it a bit further - go deeper into my life. First up was Jane (a beautiiful soul) who got an old house - I was a bit confused as my house isn't old - we built it 12 years ago. Then other things were cropping, chaotic, overstuffed...some of these were not making sense till it got to Marianne and she said red brick - my house is light coloured with red accent then it parents home in Scotland - old (tick) chaotic (tick) overstuffed (tick) red brick (double tick). I had it .... I had dreamed about walking up the road chatting with my father a few nights before hand, it had been a vivid dream, I had felt the wind and the pavement underfoot, it was very much real to me when I was dreaming. At that I cried! and it was a theme of the weekend... me sniffling into tissues - I had to have them to hand all weekend LOL. When we got to Jackie and Margaret two of our more experienced mediums who were there they had a spirit...I don't think either realised it at the time (and they had different information anyway) that it was my father so I was asked to go sit in my seat and the weekend began for me in ernest. He had a message for me at that point (and it matched a lot of what the other girls were getting through) that I had to let something go - to just forget it, it would cause too many problems to make waves that would turn into a tsunami of hurt and accusations. Things will sort themselves out and what was taken will be returned as it will do the holder no good whatsoever, so if you are reading this you may as well return it as I know who and why, I hold no grudges just heartfelt sadness that it happened, but we all make mistakes at some point in our lives.

Throughout the weekend and the various exercises we had to do - each of us on our own level but guided gently by Christine we worked our way through different methods some psychic and others through spirit communication (wish I could do this but it will take its time to learn to work at the level required). Each day and exercise my father came through, he also brought my Great Aunt Eleanor. She was like a Grandmother to me and came through with that energy, I was also visited by a friend who died when we were in our late teens - actually I think it was when we were 20 as she didn't want to live past 21 - this is something she always used to say to me and it used to upset me, but I now know that maybe she had this on her spirits "blueprint" and for some reason was aware of it. It did take me a bit to place her at first as she came through with a sister energy - at the time she was as close as a sister, she too brought love. The real kicker was my father coming through on the Sunday (by now I was a bit of a soggy mess and the girls were getting to know him quite well) but this was a bit special as he brought my Grandmother on his side. His mother had died when he was 16 years old and I have always always felt a strong affinity with her, I believe she is round me a lot and I have been told I am a bit like her. Our last prayer we did at the end of the weekend was to totally break down any barriers I may have had on life continuing on after we pass, as we were sitting there quietly listening to Christine (who was channelling a small spirit - something that she doesn't usually do) I felt the presence of my father behind me, next thing I was aware that I was being hugged, and I could smell him - he spoke to me - what he said I have no idea, but I do know I felt so peaceful at that point. To have gone from never having any communication (or obvious stuff) to this whole weekend was amazing and life changing - I am a different person today. I am continuing on my spiritual path, have found I also have an affinity with healing using and being a conduit for the universal power. That was another weekend and another post.

I really don't care if you think I have gone mad, or am strange, weird or just plain nuts. I am a different person, I am a better person than before, I have found my purpose and my journey has just begun.

Back to normal programming soon ;O)

As some of you will know I have been attending the Spiritualist
Sanctuary Church now since just before Christmas, and going to Intuitive
since the start of the year (Feb).

Thursday, 21 October 2010

and not before time.....

Ok, slack, slack, slack....I will take my time with this so we could end up with a HUGE post or we could end up with a titchy tiny one.

I set this blog up to share my crafting endeavours - they have been few and far between lately. The summer was just too darn hot and long for me this past season. Autumn eventually arrived and not before time too. I am feeling happier, colder and more able to think - though saying that I have my second cold for this month and feel like poop, the last one started as a head cold and travelled to my lungs - unable to get an appointment with the Dr (as when this happens infection sets in and I usually need a dose of antibiotics to help me to breathe without feeling like I am drowning) I had to rummage around in the medicine cupboard to see what I could find - I found some from last year but had no idea what they were for so had to do a bit of research before taking them (they were mine and were fine to use). That took care of that little problem. Unfortunately David brought home another cold last week and I succumbed to this two days ago...still a head cold and it doesn't seem to be travelling downwards but is making me a bit fuzzy round the edges with concentrating etc.

We have had a busy year a few weeks ago Amanda my eldest turned 16, that in itself seems strange as it was only a week or so ago that she was a tiny babe in my arms - well maybe a slight exaggeration. What do you get your first born on such a milestone birthday - what else but....
she was surprised/delighted and on a natural high all day. Not so sure David thinks it is a good idea any more, he has been the one taking her out in it - last time he came back with whiplash from all the bunny hopping that was taking place.

Been so long since I started writing this I have forgotten what I wanted to say in addition - so here it is almost 6 months later...she has been driving at the weekends, she is getting a bit better but needs to have some "proper" lessons, she is able to sit a test soon - she isn't ready!

Wednesday, 8 September 2010

Celebrating Stephen's blogoversary

Celebration of Bearcrazyman (or Stephen's) 1st blogoversary. He is having a massive giveaway - you have got to be in it to win it....

Tuesday, 21 July 2009

Oh Look what I can do

Oh my, I think my blogging may have jumped into this century, I just need to put my photos I want to blog about elsewhere for it to work properly now. So this is a bit of an experiment for now. If it works I will have a further play tomorrow and post something while I procrastinate about working on the BAS (Business Activity Statement) and end of year finances.

Sunday, 28 June 2009

trying may not work

Well no it didn't work, I was trying to post a video of a series of shots taken in sports mode on my new camera...will sit and ponder this for a bit longer....

Monday, 8 June 2009

In a Dragon's Den

I mentioned earlier that I have been in a House Book swap and have posted some of the pages I completed for others. I will share the remaining later. For now here are the pages that have been done for me by these ladies.

This first page is what will eventually be the cover of the book (done by me) I have several ideas for it but for now it sits and waits.

This page was done by Lucy Leatham, she actually did two for me which was totally unexpected. I love this one and the feelings it evokes. The mirror is actually shiny but doesn't show well in the photo (which were taken with my new flash camera that I have waited for patiently for quite a while now). This is also a favourite of my two girls. This next one was also by Lucy and again is just wonderful and very tactile.

Page number four was made by Kaeren Sutherland and is made using a napkin bonded to the card, the gold lace is lovely but doesn't show in the photo, neither does the gold sheen over the entire piece.

I have more to share but they wouldn't attach to this post...once I have picked up the kids from school I will work on the others.
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